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We both have hurt ourselves We both have shed tears Nevertheless we stayed together Time hasnt been our good mate Oppurtunities didnt last long But in the end we give us the love we crave Fights are neverending Same goes for words Since We fell in love, neither of them last Love isnt gaveaway or takeaway Promises arent only words Our bond is the strongest that no one can break Humans arent immortals Neither me and you But our love for each other is. 

27 th of October 2020 I went to washroom at 2:15 to pee. I came back and checked my phone, if there aren’t any miss calls. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep on my bed, but I was, unable to sleep, even after having a sleep of just 4 hours, the previous night and a pleasure of peeing. I heard something. I heard someone sob. I saw glimpses of tears. I was sweating in the cold weather. My hands started trembling and I moaned for help but the whole world was asleep. I checked my phone again. I saw a message. “Why do I deserve this?” My head started to wind around of very possible situation where I have had hurt people. I was blank out at that moment. No brainstorming occurred. No thoughts. It was difficult to remember anything when a new text came which jeopardized the situation. “- The one you love the most” I held my phone close to my chest and started crying out loud. 26 th October 2018 The day where it all started. I was wondering about you, about your

Y ou remember when I said that your voice is my favourite song. Now I crave to listen it. You remember when I said I will never say no to you But now I am only getting nos . I gave you many names and one of your favourite was polestar. But these days polestar isn't visible to me. I called you queen, but i never knew you will yourself prove me a traitor of my own world. I shared my biggest fear but now its just mere object of fun. I was available for you every time and instead of appreciating, you took it for granted. You know my weakness and strength. But I never felt strong. You said you loved me Oh I forgot  for you love doesn't mean giving respect I am responsible for every act. And every step that I take is another mistake to you. You know it very well that I'll kill myself instead of making you cry. But I didn't know that I will have to kill myself to make myself cry. You were peacefully asleep when the night haunted me. Sorry was just another &

I let you cry. I hear you sob. I kill you every night. I have seen your weak point. I manipulate it. You don't stop me. You are in love. Am I? You want happiness. You want togetherness. You want no fight. I still kill you. I love you. Do I? I make you bleed. I make you worthless. I kill your love. I have seen your weak point. I manipulate it. You don't stop. You are in love. Am I ? You want us. You make us. You try everything. I still stab you. I love you. Do I? I know the pain you suffer. I hurt myself. I blame myself. I have seen you caring. You stop me this time. You love me more. I love you more. We are in love. Aren't we?

S houting at her in the middle of the crowd, I lost my temper and threw my phone. I didn't have the courage to look at her. I swept away a few distances while she was picking up the phone with all its parts shattered on the road. Everyone must have been looking at her. Didn't she feel the most humiliated at that time? She saw me coming back at her after a few minutes with a cigarette in my right hand(being specific). Tears were running down her cheeks. I still couldn't look at her and went off babbling. Putting all the blames on her. What did she do? To be honest nothing.  She was with me all the time until my cigarette ended, constantly apologizing for the sin I committed. I still kept on babbling. Kept on saying bad, and she was there standing trying to hold my hand to calm me down but I threw her hand. She got hurt. I didn't realize that. Her sister came and took her home. Did I start the beginning of the end? I got scared to my route back. I called h

A box of cardboard, where he lives, with others, Third to be named, mistake is necessary, after first and second. Gave away himself for things, no regrets, for their happiness, Things gave away him, no regrets, for their happiness. All he wanted, why he expects, was no hatred, All he got, free away, was no love. Dragged by expectation, forcefully, of others, Never clearly found, in, his ever. Still he, from his heart, wants the foundation of expression expressed by the formula “Frown face – Anger face”, What he receives, every time, is zero of the above formula. Learns mistakes, everywhere, to adapt the new, Often, nothing specified, called one. Lives, not himself, for others, Doesn’t yet, for others, exist Life ends, no more word, here, Say goodbye, leaving him alone, soon.